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I’ll see analysis on here of characters which is so interesting and insightful, engaging with the show. I’ll see interviews with writers which work in tandem with these analyses and think, yes, what a rich piece of work to engage with and digest.
And then I’ll come across a post completely misunderstanding a character based on a one-note reading of them which has thousands of likes and feel a despair so bitter and an anger so hot it really makes me question how people watch shows these days.
#And seriously why is it always the lesbians on the receiving end of all the vitriol#Why is it always the women characters?#Well I know why but talk about a cycle#vi arcane#caitlyn kiramman#caitvi#arcane#Would it not be better to engage with what a story is telling you about things and feelings you can relate to#Rather than you telling the show how it should be telling things because honestly how are you supposed to get much out of it otherwise#And I do not mean to preach or come off as superior here honestly I’m just frustrated and tired
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Type of boy i need to eat out until he moans i make no apologies
#my stuff#emo#i know who one of these twinks is but the other two i do not so if somehow this is you or a buddy I APOLOGIZE#in my lust era who give a shit. i practice what i preach i fit the scene i listen to the music i can and will secure this bag
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i want to say first of all that i fully respect a community's/denomination's/culture's right to have closed practices. i am not entitled to other people's traditions, and when i am a guest in a space i understand that everything is not automatically for me. and i know i do not have to understand to respect.
and also! when i go to a catholic church and can't receive communion i want to fall on the floor weeping. what do you mean i can't have him he's right there. sorry my baptism was the wrong kind of baptism. i'm hungry and you want me to become someone else before being fed.
#lutheran alert but will NEVER understand closed communion. i respect it. but i do not get it#none of us will ever be holy enough to hold jesus within us but we do every day anyway. and so we are#communion is what brings me to god. to put a barrier of entry on that. to say you have to believe certain things or be in a certain state?#idk it doesn't sit right with me.#again i respect it i have catholic family ik the beliefs/history/good intentions.#but i need to come out as an open communion fan#roman catholicism didn't exist yet at the last supper. jesus said do this in remembrance of me.#everyone who does this has already fulfilled the requirements to be present at the table#i think that was the only hard part of my grandfather's conversion. that he could break bread for me at the altar but couldn't give it to m#i would give anything to watch him preach one more time (he's retired/sick now)#but more than that i would give anything to be fed by him again. to eat with him as our lord commanded#just once.#i will have to be satisfied with the foretastes of the feasts to come that i have received from/with him. we'll have that again
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The “Ghost puts you in a headlock during sex” propaganda is getting to me
#I swear to fuck#do not preach your#“ooooh Simon is a sweet innocent angel with sex trauma he would like nothing but missionary and words of affirmation”#Shit in my inbox#I don’t care what you think is out of character stop telling me you don’t like it and just move on with your day#ghost speaks#cod#call of duty#simon ghost riley#simon ghost riley x reader
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Jason Todd's timeline and "Age"
So, there's a lot of discussion of Jason Todd's age esp as relative to other sidekick vigilantes, particularly Tim and Mia. I believe the exact words are usually something about a "grown ass man beating up/trying to kill teenagers."
DISCLAIMER: This particular post is specifically regarding the "grown ass man vs teenagers" statement, I have posts regarding the "tried to kill them" portion and other stuff like "seriously Jason Todd is like being shot by a marshmallow gun compared to what goes on directly before and after him in these incidents, also you don't bitch about the right stuff, also a lot of you prop up characters who are Objectively Worse, and no that's not hate on your fave it's just me calling out hypocrisy". It just takes time to find digital copies of the panels I'm using. NOTE I AM NOT JUSTIFYING HIS ACTIONS. I'm just saying y'all blow it out of proportion for petty character hate. Like, shit, they're superheroes. Jason's soooo fuckin' tame. He's not even framed as a big deal to the teens it's only the adults that think it's that much of a problem.
Courtesy readmore post cut:
Now, to start off, we all know Jason died at 15 & a few months off from 16 (if you want me to dig up panels, sure, but I figured at this point that wasn't in question). Tim at this point is somewhere between 12-13, and we have this panel in Lonely Place of Dying which takes place a few months later:
So that's a ballpark of 2-3 years between Jason and Tim.
But Tim's age is really fucky and they keep de-aging him tbh. We can extrapolate that his confrontation with Jason was between the ages of 16-17 bcs it's after the arc where he has his incredibly shitty 16th birthday in Robin Vol2 #116 and before Red Robin where he's stated to be 17. This would put Jason between 18-19 at the time. (If you really want me to find panel sources for Tim's birthday and his age in RR then, sure, but I don't think they're necessary. I used it more as a guidepost for Jason's age, since we have a clear idea of what the age gap is.)
At least, on paper.
Mia for her part I've had a hard time finding like, on panel mentions of her age and if anyone can direct me to it being explicitly stated I'd love that. I'm rereading old comics but it's a LOT of comics to hunt down & dig through. To my understanding she was fifteen when Ollie first met her, and there's at Minimum of about a year and a half between that to her meeting Red Hood, more likely at least two? because there's at least few months between that and her joining the Titans, the Doctor Light stuff, then One Year Later, and then returned to Star some 3 months after Ollie came back to run for mayor? And then Jason not too long after. So, two years feels safe. Puts her at 17-ish, Jason at 19-20
Once again, I specify: on paper.
People would happily point out at this point that the upward stretch of a 4 year age gap is a "huge gap in maturity." And yeah, under normal circumstances, I'd agree.
But, and this is going to get contradictory bcs I found Two different timelines (BOTH written by Winick, lmao), and depending on how you read it it could be up to three different possibilities. Let's Start with Batman Annual #25: Daedalus & Icarus.
Timestamp before Jason's resurrection, which is pretty well known at this point:
Next, him waking up from a coma afterwards, when he escapes the hospital:
Now the above could be interpreted as either 1 year after he died if we're assuming that it's using the same "start" point to count as the resurrection (unlikely), or one year after he came back (more likely).
Next, the timestamp right before a guy recognizes him and sells him out:
And, finally, the timestamp before being put in the Pit:
That is, count it up, between 3-3 1/2 years where Jason was dead, in a coma, or otherwise not particularly... cognizant of the world around him. His ass is NOT developing emotionally, socially, or mentally like this, which pretty handily bridges the gaps there. Taken at face value, Jason's maturity level is going to be, unironically, younger than Tim's in the wake of these setbacks.
Now, if we go to Lost Days issue 1, it doesn't specify how long he was dead, nor how long he was in a coma, so we'll just carry those two over, what we DO have is this from just after Talia brought him home:
This puts him as being on the streets for five months, so we're at just shy of two years so far. And then we have this:
Which is right before Talia puts him in the Pit.
So, in summary: 6 months dead, 1 year coma, 5 months on the street, and something like 1-1 1/2 years with the League which...
Actually puts us on almost the exact same timeframe either way. 3 to 3 1/2 years. It just changes whether Jason was on the streets or with the League for longer.
And is utterly incomprehensible because comic timelines are a freaking nightmare.
If we're being generous, then that would put Jason at a minimum of 19, maybe toeing the line of 20 for UTRH, again, on paper, because like hell are you convincing me he did less than a year's worth of training abroad throughout Lost Days. Yeah maybe they trained him in fighting while he was catatonic, muscle memory and all that. But the other teachers that we KNOW of? The bombs, guns, probably something to get him up to date on handling all that tech we see him using, Egon, potentially arguably All-Caste if you want to draw from n52...
but you'd have to knock at least a year and a half off of his internal/personal development from death & coma, at minimum. Maybe you could argue he was somewhat developing while in his "the lights are on, but nobody's home" phase, you can't say it's at the same level as a normal person might when going about their day to day life, and it's difficult to measure. But he's not hitting the kind of milestones that he should be for his age. I wouldn't put him at anything less than two years behind. So if we use our upper estimates on Jason, and lower estimates on both the developmental setbacks and Tim/Mia's ages that gives us:
Jason toeing 20, mentally 18, fighting Tim at 16. 2 year gap, kind of stretching the physical age gap if we assume Tim had just barely turned 13 when he showed up to be Robin. - OR LESS
Jason maybe 21, mentally 19, fighting Mia at 17, two year age gap again. Honestly, still not that big of a difference - OR LESS
And, to be frank, that's not even counting the mental development issues that come from the intense physical trauma from dying - and I swear to fuck don't give me the "He's not the only one who died he's not special" speech.
HOW MANY OF THE OTHERS YOU'RE USING AS A GOTCHA LOST, *GESTURING AGGRESSIVELY ABOVE*, LITERALLY MULTIPLE YEARS OF THEIR LIFE.
Not counting adults, of course. Barry lost years, Hal lost years, Ollie I think also lost a couple years? but A) they came back still adults, bodies pretty much the same. B) While Jason's body didn't go through a magic growth spurt in canon, it did still grow esp while with the League.
I'll eventually get around to Titan's Tower & GA#72 (tbh, there are other people who've already done Titan's Tower and it'd probably be better than what I do, so I'm more going to focus on the latter, but there IS a specific part of the former that drives me nuts that I don't see brought up a lot), and maybe if we're feeling spicy all my issues with UTRH starting with how Winick is just as guilty of retroactively writing Jason as being inherently a bad penny since his Robin days as any of the other "modern" writers. Like, bud, Severe enough Head Trauma is legitimately enough to change someone's personality, not to mention trauma. It wouldn't hurt your narrative for that eerie difference, the Shade of What Once Was if you're really going for RH being Like that.
Final addition: I swear to god if you use my post to start up some kind of petty-ass ship war or flame other characters I will immediately turn off reblogs and replies I am Not Dealing With That Shit, please and thank you.
Anyways, @glitter-stained, your interest made me decide to actually put the work in now to pull it up rather than passively gather stuff to dump whenever discourse pushes me over the edge so, here ya are. Looks like you did have it closer on the mark than I did.
#dc#Jason Todd#I guess#because frankly I'm sick of this. Learn to use content filters and grow up.#Typically I try to practice what I preach and I'm very liberal with filters and blocking ppl. But Sometimes Temptation Seizes Me#Note that I'm trying to be rather Watsonian with my technicalities but I've got the Doylist angles in my head too.#Stop using a character as a gotcha to shame people you're not endearing anyone#Mia is a genuinely really good character and trying to sell her as a better alternative while bashing the characters ppl do like#does not fucking work you idiots.#Have you never worked in sales? it's Sooooo easy to spin#“Hey do you like this character for x & y & z? I have another GREAT character you'd love and has the benefit of ALSO being Q.”#positive reinforcement is always a more effective recruitment tactic than haterism#I'm already regretting this#I decided not to tag the other two bcs at this point I expect any tagged post to get messy and adding them is just inviting it to be worse
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Some childhood abuse survivors find catharsis in stories about abusive parents going to jail, getting the shit beaten out of them, being definitively disowned by their child or otherwise facing punitive consequences for the abuse they inflict.
Some childhood abuse survivors find catharsis in stories about about abusive parents apologizing to their child & owning their behavior, going to therapy, putting in work to do better by their child while understanding the harm they did will never actually be erased or forgotten, and don't really care if those stories never emphasize or explore punitive consequences in depth.
Some childhood abuse survivors find catharsis in both these things at different times, in different ways, or to different degrees.
Petition for people who do not identify as childhood abuse survivors to internalize that this shit is complicated and thinking that there even are "obvious" outcomes, wants, or reactions here is 100% due to assumptions about childhood abuse survivors stemming almost entirely from generalized and "obvious" storylines. Y'know. As opposed to there ever having been any actual trend in media of survivors taking the lead in exploring a wide range of story directions and resolutions here.
#todays rant brought to you by My What Big Balls You Have lecturing self-identifying survivors about how they “Should” never want#anything to do with parents who have ever abused them. Like. That might seem pretty obvious to anyone who has non-abusive parents#to spare and can afford to imagine HYPOTHETICALLY being better off completely disowning an abusive parent rather than#live with the possibility that they might at some point be abusive again#but when you've lived your entire life WANTING the kind of relationship between non abusive parents and children so much media#& other members of society teach/preach is the Normal Status Quo that everyone “Should” get to enjoy in life.....its actually NOT#quite so obvious a choice to just....go ahead and accept that'll never be a thing you get to have with your parent & is for Other People#so just go ahead and cut your losses there now. its good for you see#and also you're dumb and masochistic if you dont get that. apparently#anyway. stupid opinions that infantilize survivors and assume things ppl have no business assuming dont take holidays!
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i've always wanted to try out this trend! i didnt think i drew him that different. i was wrong. very wrong.
hes so baby girl in my style what the fuck. oh i know, i was just drawing what gege meant to draw. dw, i got his telepathic brainwaves 👍
[time lapse + my headcanons for Noritoshi's appearance under the cut]
some headcanons i have while drawing him are semi obvious while others are bc i like it ahehahhaheha
cupid's bow lips! this was semi inspired by Mizuki Umetsu, the actor for Noritoshi in the jjk stage play! hes so. pretty. perfect guy for the role imo! i was captivated therefore my views changed.
longer hair! the thought that his bangs(? are the same length, or longer, as the rest of his hair is nice.. it also makes his inevitable haircut much more refreshing! i also just like long hair and its a fucking waste not to do whatever the i want.
thicker brows and visible eyelashes! i naturally draw thicker eyebrows because it looks pretty, but the eyelashes is so fucking canon bro. dont even fight me on this, you'll lose. i read a fic about Noritoshi where it said he took good care of himself and his appearance inspired jealousy. that fucked me up man, so now i draw him as beautiful as i can.
monolids! I've looked through the manga and i think its highly implied that Noritoshi has monolids? yk those lines in between the eye and eyebrow, he doesnt have them in the manga. i thought it was because of the expressions he had, but no. the others have them, except geto! so geto also having monolids is so fr in my head. i like that feature abt him.
loose hairs! the hairs that i draw on his face. they make him look so cute and a bit more relaxed. he's not trying to be perfect nor have a single strand out of place. he's just a bit more at ease... though if there's something important he has to go through, he sharpens up. becomes.. stiffer?
I UNINTENTIONALLY MADE HIS CHEST LOOK A BIT BIGGER IN MY STYLE AND I WANT TO APOLOGIZE, BUT I'D BE A LIAR. DOES THIS COUNT AS A HEADCANON??? I JUST THINK... SINCE. YK. HES AN ARCHER. AND DOES TRAINING. AND COMBAT. AND DOES ALL THOSE HIGH JUMPS... HIS CHEST. ITD BE A BIT BIGGER FOR HIS STATURE.. omfg. that'd imply that his legs are fucking insane. and his arms too, since he has to pull back all those arrows so quickly.. oh my fuck. this. this is a revelation. what are you hiding under those robes noritoshi...???? one day.. one day we'll see...
oh my fucking god i forgot that i wrote shit while drawing. please ignore my fucking stupid writings AND THE STUPID ASS THING IN THE MIDDLE I FORGOT ABT WHILE DRAWING..
#kamo noritoshi#noritoshi kamo#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#dawg my pc is so old. this drawing kept killing it off every few hrs#but nothing will stop my preaching of the gospel#ALSO I DIDNT SAY BUT DRAWING IN THE FUCKING ANIME STYLE WAS SO FUCKING TOUGH???#LIKE I FEEL LIKE IT LOOKS HALF ASSED BUT I DIDNT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO.#I STRUGGLED HARD BRO#FUCK#but i also learned a lot while doing it so it was hella fun#ahaha..... his lips are cupid's bow.. meaning his words are cupid's arrows.... meaning he could make you fall so hard istg#and hes an archer..... ahhaha... a nickname you could give him is cupid. ahahah. thatd be so cute. ahahaha <- insane#also me explaining fucking eyelid lines was spectacular. wheres my teaching license#AND I CANT FUCKING WAIT FOR THE STAGE PLAY DAWG. noritoshi's clothes flowy and in action..... im gonna study and fawn the FUCK out of that#as for the time lapse. ignore how i ignored the guidelines. why the fuck do i do that. bc im a cult leader thats why. dont question me#AND I APOLOGIZE FOR MY REVELATION AT THE END THERE. IM A DEGENERATE AT HEART. BUT I MUST REMAIN CLEAN. IF NOT TUMBLR GODS WILL KILL OUR CUL#but like i said i can be suggestive. heh. heh.#peep how i said [blank under the cut] heh. wow im such an online person.#oh how cool of me#null rot
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I'm sure you get loads of these but heck I said I'd give it a shot anyway!
Your artwork is so inspiring and beautiful. I recently graduated from art school with a degree in Animation Production but I've decided I'd love to be an illustrator some day. Your work really motivates me and gets my brain juice buzzin. Keep it up!!!
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#oh thank you! I'm glad you did!#first off as a general rule I think it's always okay to message any individual independent artist/creator#and tell them that you like their work#you may think they probably get lots of positive feedback and such and another one doesn't matter#but I would bet money that the actual amount is almost always smaller than you'd think#so every kind comment has the potential to cheer them up and inspire them#and motivate them to continue creating and posting their work online for people to see#messages like that can linger at the back of your mind for ages#I regularly think back to the nice things people have said about my art over the years#especially when I'm struggling with art block and feel like what I make isn't worth anything and that I'm bad and my stuff is bad#this got a little long winded and I'm probably preaching to the choir#but what I wanted to say is don't be afraid to let creatives know if you like their work it's always appreciated#I'm flattered to hear my dog doodles motivate and inspire you!#animation and illustration are both good choices imo#I wish you all the best on whatever you end up doing#answered#starfruitwyne
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Dear anonymous. I talk about characters. I'm not hating on Pearl and I'm very much not hating on Pearl the CC. Her POV literally just hurts me on a deeply emotional level because I'm invested in her character. I thought I made that clear
#where do you people keep coming from come on man#fuck the people who are hating because yeah I've seen them. I'm not the people though#I appreciate the well intent but idk what you want me to say... Your dismay is better directed at the actual problem#and not some girl on tumblr being scared for a block woman with block trauma because she takes block storytelling seriously#blabber#I got rid of the post. whatever. I'll ensure my posts don't preach containment in the future
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i was too keyed up yesterday from peak content so i slept like garbage and am a little too tired to stream today lol
but i offer you a transliteration of hitoya’s solo preview lol
#this is vee speaking#and i mean transliteration lol#i’m not good enough to tl lyrics but i think having a general idea of what he’s saying will help in the long run lol#i really do want to talk about this lol i’m sorry my energy levels are always in the negatives by the time i get off work 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#hitoya is preaching this song is so GRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH i can’t wait to hear what he’s teaching in the rest of his song#and like i don’t want to make too many observations about anything with a bad tl lol#but the usage of ‘curse’ and ‘sing’ in those first two verses makes me think they’re directed towards kuukou and jyushi respectively#kuukou is often in conjunction with curses bc of his occupation and the same can be said for jyushi#plus the crybaby part and how jyushi still carries a lot of guilt about his past#and the scars on your chest you wear with pride kinda sounds similar to kuukou’s verse in kaigen#where he says this flower carved on my chest is a mandala#kuukou then brings up the red spider lily a flower symbolic of death#which makes me a little more certain that sadness is a curse on body and soul you carry heartache always is directed towards kuukou#i wouldn’t be surprised if hitoya’s yapping at the both of his teammates in this song tbh#kuukou’s always compared jyushi to flowers so it wouldn’t be surprising if hitoya’s blooming flowers verse was towards jyushi#but also it could be kuukou bc hayama-san mentioned kuukou was blooming in this track lol#speculation speculations~~
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I dont know who needs to hear this- but self-care doesn't have to begin, or be,- skin care, nails, lashes/brows, workouts, hair care, etc, or any other "aesthetically pleasing" "glowup"- and I'm just gonna say it- other buzz words that usually rely on societal beauty standards and buying products to fix your life.
what self-care starts with is you, what actually brings you happiness. self-care starts with finding your happiness.- because happiness leads to contentment, which leads to joy.- and once you find that, so much more can fall into place for you, and you won't feel like you have to "fix" your life as much as you'll want to improve and grow in your life- for you.
-taking care of your body is so important. but I fucking hate as someone who struggles with self-worth and productivity limiting mental health issues and going on to what should be open-minded and diverse tags and being flooded with male gaze-i-fied gatekeeping ideas on what makes someone an "it girl".
#h#FUCK BEING AN “IT GIRL”. YOU ALREADY ARE. YOU JUST GOT TO TAP INTO WHAT MAKES YOU YOUR OWN “IT GIRL”.#FUCK HOW OTHERS VIEW YOUR BEAUTY- HOW DO YOU WANT OTHERS TO VIEW AND REMEMBER YOUR HEART?#and how do you view your own heart?#ps!! i really do not mean to attack anyone here#i'm just tired of all the times I've seen posts preaching self-improvement#and its 3 pictures of skinny- face/body filtered- upper class- expensive workout clad- white girls 💀#broad term ik but i think that paints the problem I'm pointing out that i see lol#to each their own tho fr /gen#manifesting#master manifestor#self concept#self care#self improvement#it girl energy#it girl aesthetic#it girl lifestyle#clean girl#pink pilates princess#that girl#becoming that girl#glow up
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I had forgotten about Charles' "we're riding with you" when going to the oil field and Rains Fall's people waiting for Arthur to go rather than following Dutch...
The way he isn't asking for support and yet people are ready to follow him while those following Dutch are doing so out of fear or obligation
#This mission is hard tho i wanna throw hands#Dutch be playing with my last nerves#“what did you do behind my back” b*tch i helped people#hateful man preaching freedom while chaining people to him#rdr2#rdr2 spoilers#red dead redemption 2#Chapter 6 : My Last Boy#arthur morgan#dutch van der linde#charles smith
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I knew Natlan would disappoint in terms of diversity but damn… this is so bad I can’t even lie (TT)
#๋࣭. priestess preaches#i better not see a single “but not all latinos are fan“ it is so obvious it’s inspired especifically by aboriginal cultures and i am latino#and i can assure you the only place you see this shit is like in that one annoying town where all the european immigrants ran off to#nowhere else is there such a collection of whiteness…#sumeru and now this… do the character designers have a melanin allergy or…?#how do you mess up TWICE on the same issue (<- lack of diversity)#you get off white 1 to 999 and then like two shades of mildly tanned skin that’s not respected in official art :/#*latinos are tan <- i was sleepy when writing this#nah it’s just so annoying and for what… it’s like …
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Crown Prince Rudolf biographers be like
brigitte hamann: Rudolf's foreign policy aims were ambitious, if ultimately unfeasible. At the very least, he tried harder even from his difficult personal and political position to make an impact on the political affairs of the empire, unlike his entitled uncaring cruel bitch mother who never loved him enough
frederick morton: The prince's cerulean orbs glistened with barely held-back crystalline tears as he clutched the pistol in his masculine, well-muscled hand, and he caressed the mouth of the gun like he might a lover's on a gloomy winter morning, impatient, all his potent charms singularly focused on his new, dark goal, one that could only find its fulfillment in the indulgement of his secret desires... erhm no I do not want to fuck him [blushes]
empress zita: I think president Bush had Rudolf killed
greg king and penny wilson: Rudolf did 9/11 what a fucking scumbag [source: judith listowel source: dukeprince heinrich von habsburg twitter acount source: this appeared to me once in a dream]
#sjldlslf8sldös#history#kronprinz rudolf#shitpost#sometimes its exhausting to preach historical accuracy in a fandom setting ndkfkkf but like. i promise i only do it when people repeat#biased sources unknowingly!@@#you can either disregard history completely/disregard history in a controlled way/aim for accuracy. you canNOT bring inaccurate info to the#table as truth especially not in discussions that are meant to be about real world questions of morality/what actually happened etc#this is why i preach a critical attitude to historical sources#even though i like hamann's bio for how many sources it covers competently i think her interpretative argumentation from that is flawed#nevertheless its a lot better than the other ones because the other ones take the topic sooo personally dkdklsld
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Fucked up how an adult can make a simple benign poor choice of words one time and give a child a complex forever
#at this one teacher#where are you now teacher#were you ever aware that ur choice gave me crippling self hate and shame for years to come#did you ever know it was even a poor choice of words and that it was bad? or did you never think o it again#like tell me#YOU NECER SPOKE TO ME ABOUT IT OR ANYTHING#would you have???? did you ever want to?!? I’ll never know#i don’t even remember what u look like it ur name but I remember sitting at the beach at 11 years old thinking about how I was#was too dirty and evil to be a woman and that I had let all women down#that I was a monster#i remember my stupid ex friend couldn’t even be ducking nice to me one ducking time about it either#i don’t remember what the class was about but I remember looking at the other girls and feeling like an ogre who didn’t deserve to be in#their presence#i know this incident was not the root of these issues and probably just a catalyst but it sticks out as easy to remember for some reason#i know you were a psychology/PSHE teacher and would end up preaching mental health to us in a lecture many years later#i wanted to take psychology for my GCSEs because I was really interested (and good at it I think)#but you were the only teacher for it so I didn’t take it#i remember at parents evening my mum and I sat opposite you and we talked about how I wanted to do psychology#but I declined and refused to tell anyone why#it was because you were the teacher and I felt ashamed#you couldn’t have known but I kind of wish you’d asked me why I changed my mind or at least something#instead you just looked at me as if you knew#but said nothing. AS IF YOU AGREED#THAT I WAS BAD.#so that settled it#you made it clear to me you meant what you said#and there was no point in me trying to fix it#so I never took psychology#i think I could have been so good at it#do YOU
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probably also some of what deradicalized me was looking at the way my ex treated me and everyone else she felt was a "moral failure" and realising that actually I wanted nothing to do with that and that the way to be consistent was to treat everyone as if they had inherent worth and dignity that couldn't be destroyed by them being "moral failures" and that if being a leftist meant fighting for human rights then it also had to mean treating everyone well while doing so
#like sorry but i dont think telling people they should die is actually practicing what you preach#i dont think telling people theyre subhuman because theyre disabled and cant do what you can is very leftist of you#i dont think you can be high control and insist that everyone Think The Right Things and Do The Right Things#and not associate with Bad People or listen to what they say or else youll be Tainted#i dont think any of that is good actually
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